While I Stride
by Megan Grumbling
O me, while I stride ahead, material, visible,
imperious as ever! . . .
O to disengage myself from these corpses of me,
which I turn and look at, where I cast them!
— Walt Whitman
My ghostlings snag unseen over the blue
braid coils, red Asian wool, cream cotton loops
I tread in thoughtless onward. They detach
by filaments and settle, graze and catch
at ankles, steal fleet instants of my step
clear out of time: In string – tripped Muybridge split
seconds, they mark my movements between ice
and gin, drip rack and cupboard, candlelight
and sheets, are offerings of whispered least
resistance to this gliding, facile grace
of forth. I go horizon – wild, headstrong,
my grown sun – burnished histories so long
so full. But seen alone, each strand is scarce
matter enough for hue, honey and ash,
chestnut and silver though I’ve known them, gnarl
and plait, as if myself, and yet let fall
untended. Only as they break my stride
do I discover what I’ve shed, find time
to kneel, whisk hand through seeming empty space,
sheer circles, and collect myself, a skein.